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Wednesday, November 10, 2010 || 9:39 AM
losing both precious one in my life at the same time? how painful is that?
yesterday training was cool. i guess we really put all our effort. this friday is the performance. omg. and its my first performance. don't want to dissapoint the seniors. we will try our best. we promise.
after training, all eat at the same place. chit chat and laugh. while in my heart, i still crying. went back home with deen, lulu and amirul. worst, we didn't realise that we took the last train. X) and reach home like 12.30?? i quickly get ready to sent my grandma to the airport. holding my tears, enduring the sadness and all under control. After praying, went out and took taxi, i sat beside her and couldn't hold back my tears anymore. No time to think about love, performance or anything. In my heart, praying to Allah to take care her health, make sure she go and come back safely. Nothing else in my mind. And i cried till we reach changi airport. Its at terminal 2.
I thought it was only her group that is going. When i reach there, like WAA!! a lot of people. seriously. went down to basement 1 and MORE PEOPLE also. -_-" and i wasn't sitting at all for like 2 hours? and my grandma so cute u know. she non-stop going toilet. always like that when she wants to take a flight. As we chit chat, suddenly its time for her to go. everybody read the prayer together. we sent her up to the departure. and that point of time. i hug her twice. i like can't her go. cry silently. that's all i can do.
went back home. before sleep cry again. wah. woke up in the morning, my eyes are swelling. baik uh syah. promise myself to wake up at 5.30am. but u see what time now. always like that..
I've read your message at facebook. Yes, we are going separate ways. Be strong. May it be you or me. But still, i would not accept the fact that after all that argument, then became normal back. I'm teaching you not to make it as a habit but yet, you still do it. I shall say nothing but to leave you. I'm sorry.